Thanks for all your replies! Here is the last post, I guess I had a hard time to say goodbye, it was fun being Bobby!
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“So…how long is this going on?” She asked quietly and I bit my lip nervously. This was the moment; I had to tell her right there under the dark clouds and trees as we were walking in the park.
“A long time now.” I confessed. “I wanted to tell you so many times but every time I tried, something came up. I started dreaming about you and for a while I had you in my dreams but I found out that it wasn’t enough. I needed the real you not some fantasy I created.”
“You dreamed about me?” Her voice was small, like she never imagined anyone could dream about her and I grinned.
“I’ll tell you some day, but not tonight. Tonight is ours, if you want it to be.”
She averted her eyes and I had a moment of fear when she didn’t speak and we kept on walking quietly in the trail. She hugged herself and I attentively laid a hand on her shoulders, pulling her towards me, keeping her warm. I heard her sighing and she stopped, turning to face me. I still held her in my arms and she leaned her head against my shoulder.
“What is it?” I whispered, catching the way her shoulders tensed.
“Bobby…what if I won’t live up to your fantasies?”
I tried not to laugh as I reached for her chin and lifted her head gently. “Tara, I don’t want you to live up to my fantasies. I am certain that real life is so much better then my dreams. Just holding you in my arms, under the clouds is the most amazing thing that ever happened to me. Fantasies will never match real life.” She looked skeptical and I traced a line across her cheek. “Do you know what the flowers mean?” I asked. She shook her head and I smiled. “There are twelve red roses, each one of them represents ten years that I want to spend with you.” She grinned.
“It gives new meaning to the words may you live till a hundred and twenty.”
“Four yellow roses for each year that I know you and one sun flower…because I know how much you love them and because you became the center of my life…like the sun.” I chuckled. “It’s so corny…it sounded a lot better on my mind.” She laughed with me and we stood like two little children, holding on to each other as we laughed.
I held her close and she raised her head, her lips very close to mine. I smelled her scent again and could picture the island we’ll spend out honeymoon in. I grinned when our lips met and my laughter immediately died in my throat. Her touch was soft and hesitant at first and I pulled her closer, tracing her lips with my own, enjoying every breathe I took. I deepened the kiss gently and moaned when her tongue met mine and she seemed to take the lead and pull me straight into heaven.
Her touch was soft and demanding and passionate. I had no choice but to pull her closer, I had no idea our bodies could be moulded so close together. Her hands cupped my face and I tangled one of my hands in her hair and traced patterns on her back with the other one. I never knew I could do multitasking. It was so much better then my dreams, it was real and hot and feverish and I gently pulled away from her and placed a kiss on her forehead. “I love you, Tara.” I whispered and felt her gasping. “You don’t have to say anything now; I know that things came as a surprise for you. Just know that I intent to keep you in my arms for eternity.”
The smile she gave me made my heart miss a beat. “I think I like the idea.” She whispered and I pulled her for another kiss. Slow, tender, soft, I held my heart on my sleeve and she seemed to treat it with care as we kissed under the night sky. Our kiss was filled with promises for our future. I knew my dreams came true and I smiled when the details I carried in my mind seemed to disappear. I no longer remembered the way she looked when I made love to her, I didn’t remember the ring I bought for her or the way I asked her to marry me. I no longer remembered our new born daughter.
I no longer needed my dreams.
I was about to make new, real memories.
She held my hand as we walked towards my apartment for some hot chocolate. I stopped when I thought I saw someone watching us from behind the trees. I narrowed my eyes and smiled when I saw Mary Sue waving at me, a smile on her face. Tara smiled at me.
”Do you know her?” She asked and I shrugged my shoulders.
“She works at the coffee shop.” I said. “Why?”
Tara laughed. “After I looked for you all afternoon I got home and run into her. She just told me you’ll be at Antonio’s around seven and a half if I wanted to see you.” She paused for a moment, an excited smile on her lovely features. “If it wasn’t for her I wouldn’t have found you.”
“Maybe we could go and say thank you.” I smiled and she nodded her head. We turned to walk towards the trees but Mary Sue was gone and we stared at each other. “We’ll meet her in the café some time.” I shrugged and we continued our walk.
We walked in silence and I heard her laughing quietly. “You know, Bobby…I understand the meaning of the flowers but what about the condom tree? What does that mean?”
I chocked a little. “The tree…” I stammered. “Actually there’s a perfectly good explanation for that…”
“Other then the obvious one?” She laughed.
“Yes Sheila…you see…”
She didn’t let me explain, her kiss made it perfectly clear that she understood. We never met Mary Sue again and we wished her well and thanked her in our hearts. Somehow, it seemed like someone was keeping an eye on us on this Valentine day.
When I dream, my accent is much more pronounced, but on that night as I held her in my arms I knew that I will have no more dreams about some fictional life, my life was complete, my love was by my side…and my heart was whole.
The End