Ladies...Enjoy
I promised more later tonight
Josy~~~~~~~
Love is an act of endless forgiveness
A tender look which becomes a habit
~ ~ Peter Ustinov ~ ~Discreetly, she tried to remove her tears. Like by magic, a white handkerchief appeared under her eyes and a wide smile spread on her lips. Without a mirror, she couldn’t see the damage cause by her running mascara. She heard a chuckle.
“Is it not supposed to be waterproof?” quipped the Bostonian. She wrinkled her nose but couldn’t hide her smile. She giggled and he wrapped her shoulders in a warm embrace. It was nice to laugh with him. She saw the doors of the restaurant but Myles stopped walking. He turned and took the hankie from her fingers and tabbed gently her eyes.
“It is all gone, darling” he said putting back the tissue in his pocket. She tilted her head and smiled to him. He replied by a tender gaze. Lucy grabbed his elbow and sled her arm under his. In silence, they entered the restaurant where a maitre d’hôtel was standing, patiently. His unruffled composure contracted with the frenzy of the room. Captivated by the whirl of movements and words, Lucy didn’t hear Myles speaking in a hush tone to the maitre d’hôtel.
Then, she felt his hands on her shoulders. She removed her coat and felt his eyes on her. She blushed deeply as she turned and met his regard: a flame of desire and appreciation quickly replaced his surprise. That dress really underlined Lucy’s delicate musculature, her slender and her dark beauty. He leaned over her.
“I never forgot this dress” he whispered in her ear and that simple statement gave delicious shivers to Lucy’s soul.
Soon, she was following the maitre d’hôtel to an alcove where a table was waiting for them. A bit isolated from the crowd, Lucy appreciated their privacy. A comfortable silence settled between them for a few moment. Soon, words replaced the peace. Subjects of conversation swirled and changed but it was never dull. Slowly, Lucy opened her heart as Myles let her became closer and closer of his solitaire soul. They shared about their families, their deceptions, and their dreams…
Coffee and desserts soon replaced wine and meals. His arm was laid nonchalantly on the table and dark fingers intertwined with his. The light touch lifted his soul. He caressed her knuckles with his thumb and felt the softness of her skin. A finger was pressed against her wrist and he sensed her heartbeat quickened. Her eyes darkened as she tucked some hair behind her ear. Her gaze caught a glimpse of the rose snuggled against her hand. The petals were velvety.
Silence enveloped them. With a finger, she nudged her bottom lip as some questions flustered in her mind. She hesitated to ask them. Myles sensed her faltering and plunged his blue eyes in hers.
“What is it Luce?” he asked gently. She sighed as hesitation danced in her eyes. She needed to understand.
“Why did you betray me?” she asked in her whisper. A veil of shame covered his eyes but he didn’t let go of her fingers. He stayed quiet, desiring to tell the right words, not excuses but facts.
“You remember earlier I told you that for a man to love, he has to be courageous” he said, still brushing her knuckles. She nodded and waited with apprehension.
“I was terrified because I realized that I was becoming more and more attach to you and I didn’t know how to handle that. I was losing control of my emotions, of the situation and I refused to accept that reality. I don’t say it was the best way to bow out of that relationship. I have been a coward and I admit it. I have been despicable and I don’t deny it. I never truly apologize for my behaviour, for my decision and for my words. This week, I wished to redeem myself,” he said, almost holding his breath.
In his entire life, he never allowed someone to be that close. All his life, he fought to keep everyone at bay so they wouldn’t see his wounds. However, he came upon realization that he couldn’t continue this way: he would finish more solitaire than ever, embittered and cast out.
Lucy lowered her gaze and let it wandered on the scene unfolding on the front of her: their table was clean except for the rose and their fingers interlaced. Her darn skin contracted against his pale skin. She felt his anxiety exuding from his being. He opened a part of his heart that he had locked. He trusted her with his emotions. She should trust him with hers. He told her he would wait.
“Why now?” she then asked, referring to all the presents. He remained still until she lifted her chin and met a soft smile.
“With all the new love surrounding us at the bullpen, I saw behind your smile, a shadow of…” he stopped and he smirked. “I wouldn’t say envy…no…I prefer to say impatience. You were genuinely happy for Sue and for Tara but you felt left out” he explained and he tightened his hold on Lucy’s wrist.
“And I realized that Jack, even if it took him more than three years, was more courageous than me. He stepped on his fear of change and declared his love to Sue” he stated with a sad smile.
Again, his words touched a sensible cord of her heart. A melody with words she couldn’t understand came upon their ears. A dreamy smile stirred on Myles’ lips and Lucy was curious.
“Do you understand the words?” she asked and he nodded.
“He is a French artist named Francis Cabrel and the song that playing is “Je t’aimais, Je t’aime et je t’aimerais”. The English translation is “I loved you, I love you and I will love you”, he said with a hush tone. Then, his gaze turned soft and hopeful.
“Luce, I loved you back then but I was too recreant to admit it. Today, I can truly and without fear, tell you that I love you.” He got interrupted by her misty eyes. Under the dimmed light of the candles, they shone like the stars. He held her fingers and brought them to his lips. Light, the touch created shivers along her spine.
“And my deepest desire is to love you, always, to be on your side and to discover together what the future is willing to unveil” he declared with a husky tone. Emotions that she forgot she could feel, danced and swirled in her soul. Trembling lightly, she lowered her gaze. She didn’t remove her hand.
She didn’t know what to reply. He didn’t expect an answer. He stood up and winked.
“Luce, if you want to enjoy “Les Miserables”, we better hurry otherwise, we will be late” he teased. Huskily, she looked at her watch and gasped: only thirty minutes before the representation.
They left Le Paradou and walked, fingers interlaced, hope beating the same rhythm of their hearts, towards the National Theatre.