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The bullpen was quiet.
Quiet that is… until the sharp sound of a pencil cracking in half with a loud snap penetrated the stillness of the room.
Bobby mumbled something under his breath and tossed the two unevenly broken pieces towards the wastebasket at the end of his desk. He ignored the looks that swung his way as he rummaged through his desk drawer, looking for another one.
“You’ll need a new form just to keep yourself in pencils.” Lucy couldn’t help it… it slipped out of her mouth before she thought about it. She pressed her lips together tightly when he glared at her. She hastily signed SORRY to him as was the habit in the bullpen whenever anyone needed to apologize.
It had been a very long week.
A week that seemed to start the Friday before and was destined to keep them chained to their desks for the entire weekend. Again.
Silence descended on them again and the ticking of their watches and the huge clock up on the wall was the only noise until the sharp sound of a pencil cracking in half, roused them once again from their silent reveries.
Tara let her eyes wander over his form. So far… they’d been able to hide their blossoming relationship from the rest of the team. But she knew that he wasn’t okay with this case. None of them were. But Bobby had been taking this one harder than anyone else.
Single mom. Two kids. And the absent father.
And the suddenly absent father seemed to be tied to the string of robberies that had been occurring at small mini-marts across the DC area. Tara suspected the man was desperate to provide for his family. Bobby was torn… at least, in her humble opinion… between believing that the man had every intention of returning to care for his family… and a cynical outlook on life that had him believing that the poor woman would no sooner get used to the fact that her husband was a lying, cheating… scumbag….when he’d show up again, shower her with money for the bills and presents for the kids… only to drink the next month’s electric bill away so that the disconnect notice would show up when they least expect it and leave again once she’d served her worthiness to him. Leaving her to beg and plead with the customer service representative at the electric company to give her more time… when the customer service rep had probably heard ten thousand stories that day… each one of them more compelling than the last.
Tara’s heart ached for her … well now… just what was he? They’d been sleeping together too long to just be dating. But neither of them had chosen to broach the subject of making the arrangement more permanent.
“Why do things have to be so hard?” Bobby asked the room in general. “It’s not fair.”
“No one said things would be fair, Bobby.” Sue’s gentle voice was the only one that answered his outburst. “Life isn’t always fair and whoever said life was easy may have had a point.” He studied her doubtfully.
“That life is easy?” He questioned. Sue pursed her lips and wrinkled her nose slightly before shrugging.
“Of course.” Tara said, catching the attention of both Jack and Myles as she stood up and walked towards the whiteboard. “Life is easy.” She insisted. Even D looked doubtful at her statement. She rolled her eyes and picked up the dry erase marker and wrote it on the board.
Life is easy.
Tara looked at each of them in turn. D finally shrugged at her. “I guess I don’t get it.” He admitted, relieved when everyone else nodded their agreement. Tara smiled softly at him before glancing at Bobby.
“Life is easy. It’s the job… our jobs are never easy.” Tara patiently explained. “We run ourselves ragged… working late into the night when we’re ready to drop on our feet at ten in the morning. And for what?” She asked. “Do we do it in exchange for money or thanks or compliments about what we do and how we do it? No… all we get out of it is lack of sleep… too much caffeine and everything in our own personal lives, falling apart around our ears.”
It ticks just like a timex, it never lets up on you,
Who says life is easy, the job is never through,
It'll run us till we're ragged, it'll harden our hearts,
And love could use a day of rest before we both start fallin' apart
