I feel quite complimented that you would all be so emotional about my not posting often.
Thanks for sticking with me. Finally, they are coming face to face, and this post is a TAD longer than the others - but don't get used to it!!
I'm posting tonight in case I don't get around to it tomorrow - now I'VE got car trouble and must get my vehicle twenty miles down the road, and after that I have a library program at my library to attend tomorrow night - it's a writing workshop. The topic is e-publishing!
Happy reading!!
Regina
6
“Hi Jack. What are you doing here?” Sue said, noting the ill-concealed temper that seemed to be flaring for whatever reason. Her goal was to remain as calm and impassive as possible.
“I . . . uh . . . I was in the neighborhood,” he said, more of a question than a statement. Standing there, looking at her, he felt all his anger start to melt away, and the hurt start to move forward.
He looked at her, noting the red-rimmed eyes, the Kleenex in her hand, and the tension around her mouth. Looking down the hallway, he saw her bedroom with the evidence of packing and sorting all over the room. He could see the hockey jersey on top of one of the piles. He looked back at her, trying to beg her with his eyes to tell him ‘why?’ His eyes had always worked before. It was as if she were purposely making him use other methods than the ‘tried and true’ that had always been successful for him in the past. She wanted words.
“Jack, you weren’t in the neighborhood, unless you were interrogating someone down here,” she said, with a tired sigh. “Come in. You’re soaked to the skin, and it’s cold out there. It is March, after all. Why didn’t you bring an umbrella?” She was walking ahead of him into the living room so he could stand in front of the fireplace. It was as if she didn’t want to look at his face, didn’t want to see what he was saying. Not that he was saying anything.
She had seen the change in his demeanor as he looked up at her in the doorway. She knew he was hurt that she was leaving. She was, too, but he didn’t seem to understand why.
Her world revolved around him, and that scared her to death.
She had seen so many women, especially women like her, drift into relationships that were serious on their part only to find out that their deafness was too much for a hearing man to handle on a daily basis. Jack had proven that her deafness didn’t wear on him. He had made so many allowances in his life for her, but he still couldn’t bring himself to tell her how he felt. Until he could do that, she would have to go away, lest she lose herself completely in this friendship that held promise to be so much more - promise, but not commitment.
She went into the kitchen and made some coffee. She knew he had to be chilled. No telling how long he’d been wandering around, trying to figure out what to say to her. She smiled a sad little smile thinking about his blundering about, and then sighed. She didn’t realize it, but her sigh reached Jack’s ears in the next room. That sound, quiet though it was, was like a siren in Jack’s ears. He couldn’t stand it any more.
When she returned to the living room, he decided to take the bull by he horns. “Why are you moving to Los Angeles?” he asked, his tone not reaching her, but the redness and look of anger on his face certainly not lost on her. “Is it because Tony is out there?”
She gave him a look that was totally confused, and angry at the same time. “Tony? Why would I care where Tony is? He’s a married man, you know. I don’t DATE married men, and I probably wouldn’t date him again if he WEREN’T,” she answered, her voice rising in anger to match his.
Jack had the grace to blush and look down at his feet. He asked her softly, the anger gone, but the hurt still there, “Then why are you going?”
Sue looked down, trying to gather her thoughts without giving it all away. “I need to do this. I probably should have gone to New York when I had the chance. I guess I’m just restless,” she said, shrugging. “Why do you care if I go?” she asked, hazarding a glance at Jack, who, unbeknownst to her, had started toward her while she was looking away. She was a bit startled to find that he was standing in front of her.
“I’m sorry, Sue. I know I’ve hurt you,” he said, reaching out for her hand, his mind in turmoil. How much should he say? Is it appropriate to just lay your feelings at someone’s feet? Wouldn’t that be moving a bit too quickly? As soon as that thought entered his head, it was like someone had slugged him in the gut – and he knew how that felt. ‘Four years, Hudson. Four years isn’t exactly moving too quickly,’ he thought.