Only one more post after this one! Thanks for the comments. I enjoyed thinking about what the team was doing with their time . . . I just hope nothing was happening that would threaten national security that day, and I couldn't resist bringing back "Mr. Wong from Hong Kong!!!"
And now, back to the story . . .
Regina
12It was a quiet meal. They finally decided to call it “lupper,” since it was too late for lunch, and too early for supper, but would take the place of both. Levi was as relaxed as he could be, considering the tension that both his mistress and his other favorite human was exhibiting. 'People,' he thought, and whined a little.
They both felt some better after eating, and Sue made a fresh pot of coffee while Jack discarded the containers and put the leftovers in the refrigerator. Carrying their coffee into the living room to sit in front of the fire on this rainy spring day, Jack finally set his cup on the coffee table and turned to face Sue.
Touching her arm to call her back from wherever her thoughts had taken her, he said, “Sue, we have to talk. I have to talk.”
“I’m not going anywhere. Oh . . .,” she said, at first a little grumpily, but then with realization and a mist of tears in her eyes as she realized that she was, indeed, preparing to go somewhere – across the country, in fact. She looked up at him with the unshed tears in her eyes, and said, “so, what did you want to say. I don’t think there will be an interruptions this time,” she said, recalling the last time Jack had said very similar words in the hallway of the Hoover Building six months ago. That time it was Myles who interrupted whatever Jack had planned to say, and he never said it.
The tears made him want to do anything but talk, but he knew he couldn’t keep it in any longer. He reached over and caressed her cheek with his hand. “Sue, I don’t want you to go. If you do go, I hope you’re prepared for me to follow you out there,” he said.
“Oh Jack,” she said, closing her eyes for a second to blink back the tears, “
why don’t you want me to go, and
why would you follow me out there?” If he could just tell her how he felt, she knew they could make it work. If he didn’t love her, she would learn to be satisfied with his overwhelming friendship. If he did . . . well, she wouldn’t go there – not yet.
“Do you remember what I told you earlier? I said you mean more to me than my next breath. I meant that. Sue, I love you. When I’ve been in danger, it’s been you I think of. My first instinct, always, is to protect you. I guess what I’m trying to say, in my own foolish way, is that I’ve been protecting you from me, and me from you.”
“Jack, I love you, too . . . but what on earth do you mean?” Sue asked, thrilling at the fact that he loved her, but confused about his protective mechanism that seemed to be keeping them apart.
“This is going to sound really crazy, I’m afraid. I guess I was trying to guard my heart against getting broken. I couldn’t stand the thought of not having your friendship. It’s the most important friendship I’ve ever known. When I first realized how special you were, I thought, yeah, she’s a great girl. I can talk to her about anything, pretty much, that I can talk to Bobby about. Then I realized, I guess it was before we went undercover on the Dessa case, and especially after that, that you were more than a friend to me. I think I knew when I had that heart attack, but I was too scared about everything else to think about it. Am I making any sense?” he asked, looking deeply into her eyes to get a glimmer of understanding, but all he saw was love shining back at him.
“Jack, I was scared, too. I’ve never had a friend like you or the team since Judy. I was afraid of losing that, afraid of breaking the rules and messing things up. I guess the main thing that I was afraid of was that you couldn’t possibly love me as much as I loved you. In my experience, guys like you don’t look twice at girls like me . . .,” she said as she was interrupted by Jack’s kiss.
The kiss in the dragon lady’s office was sweet, but this was unlike anything either of them had ever experienced. With this kiss, all the years of insecurity flew away from Sue, and all the years of searching for “the one” ended for Jack. Four years of simple touches under the guise of making sure Sue was in the loop, four years of gazing at one another across the bullpen, four years of mis-steps and embarrassing moments, of matchmaking friends and chance encounters.
It all ended tonight – ten days before Sue was to report to the LA Field Office of the FBI . . .
See you tomorrow!!