MYLES’ DECEMBER MUSINGS


Wednesday December 1st


Diary, it would appear that December 2004 is going to be an interesting chapter in my future memoirs. Apparently my colleagues have decided to join in the fun of the normal Christmas frivolities. I entered the Bullpen this morning to find Tara crouched over her computer as normal. That position will not do anything good for her posture, I really must remember to mention it to her. Anyway, she was crouched, but just as I entered she rose to get coffee and I realised there was nothing normal about her today as she was wearing brown fluffy slippers with Rudolph’s head on them, complete with flashing red nose. When I queried her choice of footwear, she informed me that she didn’t like wearing her winter boots indoors and I quote “ besides, tis the season to be jolly!” Bobby took this opportunity to launch into some Ebeneezer Scrooge jokes at my expense, much to Jack and D’s amusement.

Lucy was surprisingly quiet and missed the opportunity to take another verbal swing at me. She appeared pre-occupied the whole day in fact. Perhaps she is concerned about our mutual friends Jack and Sue as their relationship continues to be decidedly frosty. I have not been able to establish why just yet, and may not have time to delve into this situation due to the top priority case Garret delivered to us this afternoon. We are being briefed tomorrow morning by another government agency.

I thoroughly dislike not being able to give specific details of cases, Diary, as I know by the time I return to review this before publishing my memoirs, I’m not going to be able to remember what they were about.

Another Myles story! Seeing as how he' s one of my two favorite characters (guess who the other one is), I'm always up for Myles' musings! And I think you brought up an important point here, Lynne...Myles and the others can't write about cases in their journals for confidentiality reasons. How hard must that be, to carry all that around inside one's head and not be able to share it or express it?

LOL - very Myles!

Wonderful start, Lynne! You really captured all of the characters so far, especially Myles. And I can definitely see Tara wearing slippers like those, lol. And..what's up with Jack and Sue??? I can't wait for the next installment.

Smiler...wow...great job!!! It was so "Myles." The statement about Lucy not taking the "verbal swing" was very real.

Yea, another Christmas story Smiler!! Great job with Myles! Brown fluffy flippers with Rudolph's head

Can't wait to see what's up with J/S!

Thanks for all your feedback


Thursday December 2nd

The briefing on our new case went as well as can be expected considering we were briefed by a government agency who take the word “secrecy” to new levels. Trying to get information out of them was like trying to draw blood from the proverbial stone.

It seems our team has been chosen to investigate a series of murders in the DC area. We have been drafted in due to our high success rate and because the last victim was related to a very influential Senator.

The victims were all young women. All from good backgrounds, no apparent reasons for them to be killed. We know that there is a serial murderer out there as all of the women had been frozen to death and then their bodies dumped in different parks around the DC area where they were easily found. Freezing would seem to be a strange choice for the killer as it would take some time. DC police were unable to find any forensic details on the victims or where their bodies were found. Very mysterious.

I think this particular case has struck an uncomfortable chord with the team. Tara, Sue and Lucy seemed particularly upset when the photos of the victim’s bodies were shown. Whilst they were disturbing I believe the three of them could personally identify with the victims as they are all of similar age and backgrounds as the victims. I believe Bobby, D, Jack picked up on the ladies distress as did I and as a result we are more determined than ever to get this monster off the streets.

Although difficult and disturbing this case may assist in resolving the Jack and Sue situation. When the Agent delivering the briefing described the victims he actually pointed out how similar they all were to our own Miss Thomas. I noticed Jack’s gaze immediately found Sue’s as if to assure himself that she was ok. The warmth in his gaze as it rested on Sue and her subsequent blush suggests that their currently estranged relationship may not last too long.

Nice post, Smiler. I'll admit I'm a little confused about one thing, though. I thought Myles couldn't talk about the cases in his journal? Maybe I read something wrong.

I don't like the sound of that...

It certainly is more than a little unsettling to know that the victims bear a resemblance to Sue....please post some more soon!

Smiler, they all look like Sue?? This has the makings of a great story! Can't wait for more!

I'm sorry for confusing you Rerio, and anyone else. There will be some case in this story as it's going to be important to some of the characters - particularly Myles. However there won't be any specific details like names etc. only small updates on how it's going.

If i do make any mistakes please point them out. This is my first longer story and I'm still learning this writing thing so i appreciate all the help i can get . Please bear with me!

Friday December 3rd

Diary, I will admit this to you and you only. I was wrong. There has been no thaw in the Jack/Sue camp. I personally witnessed Jack asking Sue if they could talk in private only to be brutally rebuffed with “I think you’ve said enough”. For the rest of the day Sue sat in almost silence watching CCTV tapes from the nights of the murders and Jack prowled the Bullpen like a bear with a sore head.

After hearing Jack tear a strip off Lucy for something petty for about the third time today, I whispered across to Bobby to ask what was going on with our favourite two-some. Before Bobby had the chance to reply, Jack reprimanded us for gossiping when there was a murderer out there. Really! Me, gossip! A Leland would never lower himself to that level.

On further discussion with Bobby it seems he is as clueless as the rest of us. Jack has refused to talk about it. Something must be done. I cannot stand by and see two of my friends, yes I do consider them friends, so miserable. Besides I selfishly do not want to work in a Bullpen with such disharmony. It gives me a headache. Note to self: Arrange a war council with Lucy and Bobby – something must be done!

Uh-huh...suuuure you wouldn't, Myles.

Go Myles! I just love it when he's all in charge....

Sorry...got distracted for a minute. Now, what's up with Jack and Sue? I'm not liking this sadness at all. And why do I have a bad feeling that it won't be resolved until after Sue goes through something awful associated with this case? Smiler, you're the only one who can answer these questions!

smiler, i'm really liking this story! nice idea to have myles diary. you are writting him prefectly too!

That's so Myles! I'm also worried that this rift between Jack and Sue will only be repaired after a life or death situation puts things in perspective...can't wait for more, Lynne!

You have Myles so downpat!! I can't believe how many myles storeis are out there now. I can so see this as his diary!!! And I think he's going to end up playing matchmaker for Sue and Jack -- am I right? an't wait to read more.
Kav

Saturday December 4th

I have began pondering what gifts to get the team for Christmas. Whilst pondering I realised something. I have worked with several teams during my career at the FBI but there is something very unique about this team. It took a while to put my finger on it but then I realised that it was because we are more than just a team of work colleagues, we are family.

D is the father-figure of the group. Steadfast, fair and excellent at settling squabbles between the siblings. Obviously because he has kids and is an expert in this field compared to the rest of us. Note to self: Must remember to get a little something for Tanya and Davey for Christmas.
Bobby is the pesky, yet loveable rogue of a baby brother. On the surface he may appear to be a bit of a joker but he is very in tune with the mood of the group and eases tensions with a quick quip or joke. Although usually at my expense it is an enviable skill. He is a deeply caring and sensitive man as I have witnessed in his dealings with victims.

Lucy is a mix of mother and elder sister. Mothering us all on a daily basis by going quietly about her job, instinctively knowing what we all need at any given time. A skill even my own mother has never mastered. Her big sister side shines through in her fun-loving nature and with her infamous matchmaking.

Tara is the slightly quirky but brilliant sister of the group. Like Lucy she has such a fun-loving nature with the fuzzy pens and slippers and the silly games. Yet she is an excellent Agent and I have yet to meet anyone who can eclipse her computer prowess. Beneath all that I do sense a gentle spirit, caring but unsure and vulnerable at times. Intriguing.

Sue I would liken to the baby sister of our family. The natural reaction from we men of the team is to protect her because her apparent naivety and innocent nature appears to make her vulnerable. But she fights against these confines and can be like a tiger until she gets her way, and rightly so. I and the others have come to respect her incredible skills and strength. Despite her apparent naivety and innocence she is incredibly wise too. Instinctively knowing when we need a shoulder to lean on and is always willing to provide her support. Having been on the receiving end of this several times I am incredibly grateful for her presence in the team.

Jack is the big brother that we all look up to and try to be like in many ways. Always steady and loyal, our safe harbour in the craziness of our jobs. He always keeps an eye out for all of us and is incredibly protective of his “family”. He will go to the bat for any of us without hesitation, as we would for him. Always ready with praise when due but just as ready with a kick up the jacksy if required.

Then there is me. I’m not entirely sure where I fit into this Brady Bunch, perhaps as the slightly dysfunctional brother – who knows? I do know that they accept me as one of the “family” and I will be forever thankful for that, not having that close a family of my own.

Therefore I would like to present them with special gifts this year – but Diary, what I ask you?

Wonderful analysis of the team, Lynne! Very honest and true. I'm looking forward to your next post!

Ohhhhh -- I can't wait until he figures out what he can get his 'family'. I really liked his musings about how they all fit together -- and nice to hear what he really thinks of Bobby. this is good...really really good....looking forward to all the other days of December.
Kav

Sunday December 5th

Diary, yet another Sunday spent at work. It was made somewhat more tolerable when Lucy appeared with a large box of cinnamon rolls and fresh ground coffee. My ulcer thanks her for saving it from another day of drinking the tar available in the Bullpen, which they loosely call coffee. Someone really should give her a medal of some sort.

The murder case is moving along nicely. After some investigating it would appear that all of the victims frequented a certain nightclub. They had all done so on the nights of their murders and there is a pattern to the murders as they all occurred on a particular day of the last six months. If the killer stays true to his pattern we have until the 12th to catch him or we will all be going clubbing that night just in case he tries to strike again. We just have to hope he keeps to his pattern, however it has been my experience that serial murderers like routines.

Sue, Jack, Tara and I spent most of the day examining the tapes from the club. We were able to identify each of the victims on the dance floor all dancing with the same man. Suspect number one. We will most likely spend the rest of the week questioning family and friends of the victims in the hope that someone will recognize him.

What Tara can do with that computer of hers never ceases to amaze me. The atmosphere in the club was not conducive to identifying anyone yet she was able to pull pretty clear pictures out of the haze. My admiration for her numerous talents continues to grow.

I noticed Sue was finding the task of reviewing the tapes particularly tiring as the dark lighting of the club seemed to make lip-reading incredibly difficult. In another development of the Jack/Sue drama; without being prompted Jack placed a glass of water and painkillers in front of Sue having realized that she was suffering from a headache. He received a grateful but hesitant smile of thanks. A little progress perhaps?

Note to self: must remember to speak to Lucy tomorrow regarding this ongoing situation.






A/N: Can i just say thanks for everyone's support. I had considered stopping this story but the feedback posted here has encouraged me to continue. As long as i know that there are some out there enjoying it i'll keep going. Thanks again - it means a lot.

Lynne

xx

Lynne, you are doing a fantastic job with this! I really like how you write from Myles' perspective...it's very "him", if you know what I mean!

I particularly liked this...

I have something of that nature in the story I'm currently writing and hope to post soon. Another detail of Sue's world for Jack to notice and act upon.

Keep it up, you've got me hooked!

Smiler, I am enjoying this immensely. What a refreshing change of scenery you're giving us, writing from Myles' perspective! You have captured his persona so well. Keep up the good work, and PLEASE, keep posting!

Please don't stop this story as its really wonderful. I'm really enjoying Myles journal and you write him so well.

Lynne, Lynne, Lynne -- this is Amazing, Brilliant, Captivating, Delicious, Endearing, Fantastic, Great, Heavenly, Illuminating, Juicy, Kute, Lovely,Marvelous, Nice, Obsessive, Pretty darn good, Quirky, Reflective, Super, Terrific, Unbelievable, Very good, Wonderful, Xtra special, Yowsers, Zing-y....oh dear I've run out of alphabet so I have to stop. You have captured Myles so well -- I can actually hear his voice when I read his journal -- I can't just skim it -- the words come out in my head just like he would say them. Snicker -- I picture him writing at an antique desk in his library wearing one of those smoking jackets -- too funny eh? I hope you don't stop -- but understand if things are too hectic right now. However long you go -- I'm really enjoying it!
kav

Lynne, I couldn't agree more. I especially loved the descriptions of each member of the team. They were captured so incredibly well!!! You put into words what I'm sure we have all seen, just weren't able to write so effectively.

The J/S plot is sure intriguing... which I do remember is the adjective Myles used to describe Tara...

I'll stop there, before I read too far into this. lol.

Keep up the excellent work! I only wish I had found this sooner.

Smiler, I really hope you don't stop this story unless you really really have to! It's great! I just got caught up and I don't know which part I liked better, the way you had Myles describe the team as family, or the way you described how the case is going! You really have Myles down so well and have made this very interesting, fun and well, I can't wait for the next post! Besides, Kav gave you a whole alphabet of reasons to keep writing!

Monday December 6th

I finally managed to get a hold of Lucy today. She has even less of a clue than I do on what the problem is between our favourite non-couple. Sue refuses to discuss it with her. I find this very surprising as they are best friends and it was my understanding that they told each other everything. Lucy admitted this concerned her greatly and has led her to believe that Jack must have really hurt Sue for her to react in such a way.

Bobby entered the conversation at this point and it was decided that we need to get them on their own and talking. Therefore Lucy will recruit Tara and take Sue out shopping and for dinner after work tomorrow. Bobby and I will take Jack out for some male bonding time. D will also be joining us.

We are the best the FBI has to offer, surely we can interrogate Jack and Sue and obtain the truth and nothing but the truth.

So help me I will!

I like the phrase "our favourite non -couple" -- that is so apt.
And what has Jack gone and done to poor Sue?
And I think the interrogations will prove interesting -- wonder if they'll say the same thing?
Can't wait to read more!!!
Kav

Here is some more. I have some free time this morning so i'm making the most of it. The rest of the week may be pretty hectic so i may not get on much and i'm going away next week to New York City. I'll try to get another couple of posts up before i go but i'll be back after the 19th.





Tuesday December 7th

I have just returned from my outing with the “boys”. Whilst the interrogation had a slow and difficult start it was a resounding success! Withdrawing a full confession from Jack. Dinner at Luigi’s was tasty but uneventful with unassuming chit-chat to lull Jack into a false sense of security. This was followed up by a couple of beers to loosen his tongue – entirely Bobby’s idea may I add.

Despite this careful preparation, when the subject of Sue was first broached by Bobby in his usual not-so-subtle style (“So mate, what’s up with you and Sue?), Jack immediately denied anything “was up” and followed this by “and if anything was up I wouldn’t want to talk about it, so can we please change the subject?”

Responsibility then fell to yours truly. Aiming to appeal to his conscientious team leader side, I stated that I was concerned about the atmosphere in the Bullpen at the moment. Instantly Jack was on alert and asking why. I simply explained that the strained relationship between him and Sue was having an affect on the whole team. Waiting on the big blow-up was not conducive to a happy work place. After a pause Jack began to talk and the whole story came out. Boy am I good!

It seems on one of their frequent pizza trips the conversation turned more personal. Can I just say Diary, if over the past two years, on many dinner outings, they have only been talking about work, Jack is even more of a hopeless case than I feared!

Anyway, I digress. Jack had told Sue that he had stopped seeing Allie a while ago but was slightly peeved when he got little to no reaction from Sue to this announcement. Merely an “Oh, that’s a shame.”

Now I was not there but knowing the intricacies of the female mind as I do, this was most likely said with suitable false sympathy to cover her true feelings. Bobby and D agreed with me that there is no doubt that Sue would be extremely pleased at this turn of events.

Sadly Jack is not me and is not so well versed in reading the true meaning behind a woman’s words. Jack’s disappointment got the better of him and when the conversation steered round to Sue’s lack of a love-life he could not prevent himself from mentioning that “thing” with Tony and how Sue was probably wary, after making a fool of herself with him. Needless to say Sue was not at all pleased and dinner was brought to an abrupt end when she and Levi left Jack sitting in the middle of the restaurant.

Personally I am surprised that she didn’t hit him over the head with the pizza. I would congratulate her on her admirable restraint if I didn’t think she would throttle me for mentioning that particular occasion.

After the shock of Jack’s momentus faux pas and spectacular descent into Neanderthalism wore off, Bobby, D and I agreed that Jack has a very steep up-hill climb to get back into Sue’s good graces. Jack then confirmed what we already knew, that he had been such a jerk because he wanted more from Sue than just friendship. Halleluhiah!!!

This leaves him in an even worse situation however as it is going to take a darn sight more than painkillers and water for him to achieve that. It was decided to adjourn this war council to give us some time to contemplate an appropriate plan of action.

Lynne this is great,

I am slowly catching up with everything I have missed out on, and this is a real gem!

As I sit here reading Myle's words I picture him sitting in a big leather chair a fire roaring and an expensive fountain pen scribbling away. This is the Myles we see every episode.

The way he speaks the way his mind works, you have captured it all so very well!

Lynne, I had been trying and trying in my feeble mind to figure out what Jack could have possibly done to bring about such animosity...I hadn't even considered this, and it's brilliant!!! And I love having it told from Myles's POV. This is so excellent!!!


This is priceless!


Loved this paragraph!!

Looking forward to the results of your "extra time" and hope you have a wonderful trip to NYC!!!

Wednesday December 8th

Christmas has arrived in the Bullpen. Santa’s little elves were obviously up early this morning and have decked the whole place in festive decorations including a rather scrawny looking tree. I happened to catch a little bit of a conversation between Tara and Lucy and the tree was Tara’s doing. She felt sorry for it when she saw it all on it’s own at the garden center. She has such a soft warm heart, something she rarely shares at work.

Despite the warm, festive mood the decorations attempt to create, perma-frost has set in it seems. Who knew that could happen in the well-heated Hoover Building? Sue is still studiously ignoring all of Jack’s attempts at conversation. Obviously her story matched Jack’s last night as there is a frosty air when Jack approaches Tara and Lucy too.

The strange thing is the frost has spread to Bobby and I too. Why I do not know! D and Levi appear to be exempt, obviously because D is married and Levi is not a human male. Though I do wonder about that sometimes. There may be something to this re-incarnation business after all because if anyone has been here before it’s Levi.

Anyway, this just proves the strangeness of the female mind. Bobby and I have no control over Jack’s stupidity, we weren’t even there for goodness sake! But apparently we are guilty by association because we are male and are Jack’s friends.

Perhaps my understanding of women is not so complete after all.

It’s all Jack’s fault and he will have to pay.

This is too funny!!!! Poor Jack -- "this is Jack's fault and he wil have to pay." I think he's paying big time already!!! Myles as a mediator is quite hilarious. And who gave you permission to go to NYC ladeda and leave us hanging until close to Christmas?! Lynne, this is so much fun to read, and watch unfold. I can hear Myles voice saying each word. I feel like I knowhim so much better now!!!! Have fun on your trip!!!
Kav

Oh, this is funny! But, at the same time disheartening. Myles is so gung-ho. I love it! It totally reflects his character on the show. Whatever he decides to do, he doesn't go half-way. So, he decides to help Jack out at all costs. Then, when he loses the womens' respect somehow, he will do about anything to get it back. hehe. So, Myles leaves the big dogs for women's approval. Priceless!

Well, keep up the fantastic work! Looking forward to seeing the perma-frost melt, and how it comes about. Keep it up! It was great to wake up and check online to see that you had added! You really are doing a fine job.

Now we know what Jack said, I can't wait to find out how the guys are going to try and fix it!

Love the way the girls are ignoring the boys! With only D and Levi exempt.

Please post again soon.

Some how I managed to post twice! Oops!

So I will say Ditto! To everyone and look forward in eager anticipation to your next post!

This is such a fun story, Smiler!

I loved the way you described the team as "family"...you understand them all so very well.

The "dinner with the guys" was very well-written. I could picture the whole Jack/Sue dinner really happening, and Myles' reaction was simply priceless.

I've also enjoyed your subtle hints at a M/T relationship...or am I just reading too much into certain sentences?

Anyway, great job!

Lynne, I finally have time to read what others wrote with my own story out of the way and all I can say is : Brilliant! This story is simply brilliant.

You've captured Myles' essence in a bottle and sprayed it onto each and every word. (boy, this cold is really doing funny things to me, I think my brain missed a gear. )

I can't wait for more!

Well here is the next bit. Enjoy! I'll try not to leave it too long to get the next one up.






Thursday December 9th

The murder case is proving rather difficult. We have been unable to obtain any viable leads and even the amazing Howie has been unable to get us any decent information. It has been decided that we should direct our efforts into setting up an undercover sting operation for Saturday night at the club. Tomorrow will be spent finalising those details.

The Defrost Case (as I have come to call the J/S situation) has made some progress however. Bobby and Jack felt that we could not resolve the matter with the females in the office ignoring the single, human males. Therefore I was “volunteered” to enter the lionesses den to extend an olive branch. Short-straw was the phrase that came to mind.

I did not undertake this assignment lightly. I examined my options and quickly ruled out two of them. Sue was obviously not the way to go as she is at the center of the whole matter. Besides I don’t think I could be too convincing with her anyway as Jack would not be on my Christmas card list either if I was in her position. Approaching Lucy was also ruled out as our past relationship speaks for itself and Sue is her best friend so she is sure to support her to the hilt.

That left me with Tara.

I spent sometime composing an email to her inviting her to attend a luncheon with me. I must have been appropriately convincing as she quickly donned her coat and shoes (she was wearing Santa slippers today) and met me in the hallway with a most becoming blush on her cheeks.

We had a lovely lunch. Fascinating conversation. We really do have quite a bit in common and she brings out a more relaxed side of me that even I was unaware of. I laugh a lot in her company, which she tells me I do not do enough of. I find myself incredibly drawn to Tara and thoughts of her bring a smile to my face even when she is not near. I intend to get to know Tara a lot better.

As a result of our lunch Tara, Lucy and Sue are at least talking to Bobby and I now. Unsurprisingly Jack is still out in the cold as far as Sue is concerned. I think I may purchase Jack new gloves and scarf for Christmas – he needs them.

Oh, I just love that! You've nailed some of the many reasons I think Tara and Myles would be a good couple: And I'm feeling just mean enough to admit that I'm glad Myles worked things out for himself (and Bobby), but left Jack to take care of his own business. Jack, you made this mess...you fix it!

I agree, Jack needs to fix this by himself!! I'm glad you're back, Lynne, and I'm eagerly awaiting more when you find the time to write it.

You're back!

Excellent post!

Loves Myles and Tara and her slippers!

I am so intriqued what has Jack done?

Started to think that maybe this was about the episode when he wouldn't go to the poetry reading! But..... Who knows?

I hope we find out soon.

My goodness, Smiler, am I late for this party. I'm certainly glad everyone started without me but I think I'm up to speed and ready to emotionally rumble...

Can I just tell you that I absolutely, with a doubt, love this. The Myles angle, the frostiness between Jack and Sue (can I just say "dork" in a really nice way) and the "war session" is just brilliant.

Little nervous about the case and the possibility of what will break through the walls of pride but I'm along for the most enjoyable ride.

Only YOU can, Tracie!!!!! hehehehehehehehe

Thanks for all the great feedback. It definatley keeps me going.



Friday December 10th

Something strange happened to me today Diary.

It all began with our briefing this morning regarding our undercover operation on Saturday night. We had decided that the best course of action would be to try and attract the killer in the club, but how to do that? Then Sue spoke up and put the idea out there that probably had briefly crossed a few of our minds. I know it did mine. She suggested since she looks so much like the victims, that she should go undercover and hopefully attract the killers interest. Jack barely let her finish her sentence before stating that was not an option.

The rest of us could only observe the subsequent battle of wills between them. However despite Sue’s protests Jack merely told her that she could not do it as she was not a full field Agent. A tad harsh I thought considering she has been undercover before.

However I can now understand Jack’s reaction somewhat. When Sue made her suggestion he had gone slightly pale and his voice did not sound completely steady. He was obviously experiencing some difficult emotions, which I experienced myself shortly after this conversation.

Into the silence following Jack and Sue’s argument Tara piped up with “I’m an Agent”. As soon as she uttered the words, I experienced a feeling I haven’t had before. It felt like the bottom of my stomach fell out, a cold shiver ran down my back and I felt almost……. Scared. Not sensations I am accustomed to and certainly not ones I enjoyed.

My initial reaction was almost identical to Jack’s with Sue and I simply stated “Not an option”. I don’t know who was more surprised at my outburst; Tara, me or the rest of the team. Another argument ensued between Tara and I. However I did not win this one as Tara is a highly trained Agent, like the rest of us, and with a few cosmetic changes to her appearance could look quite attractive to our killer. She certainly has the curves for it….. ANOTHER TIME LELAND!!!

So it was decided and approved by Garret that Tara will go undercover in the club tomorrow night and the rest of us will be close by, ready for the moment he may try anything. I’ll make sure of it.

GreatJob!!!!!

Very interesting!! I think Sue should have, Jack should't have said no!

laura

Wow...great, great post.

These guys care about these women so much...I love it. I still wonder if at some point Sue will be involved by accident.

Sidenote to Myles: Keep an ever watchful eye on our Tara!!!

Trace, somehow I don't think that'll be a problem. After his reaction to her volunteering, I'd say he'll be watching her like a hawk.

Well, hopefully Sue, beyond her initial hurt, will be able to see that Jack reacted the way he did because of his feelings for her, not because he's trying to hold her back. He knows she's more than capable of putting herself out there as bait and doing it well, but his heart is the one protesting, not his head.

Anyway, fantastic job!! I am anxiously awaiting more. Glad that Myles is realizing how much of an impact Tara is having on him... like a punch in the stomach, coupled with a cold shower...

Saturday December 11th

I don’t quite know how to describe today. Perhaps I should just start from the beginning.

Morning.

I tossed and turned all night going over the operation in my mind. I could not rest until I was sure all angles were covered and that Tara would be safe.

Somehow Tara has crept into my mind to such a degree that there is rarely an hour goes by that I don’t think of her in some way. I find myself deeply protective of her. My mind knows she is an exceptionally good and capable Agent but my heart does not seem to listen to reason. All it seems to understand is that someone who is becoming very dear to me is placing herself in danger and urges me to fight against that situation with everything I am.

Yet I have no claim to such feelings at all. We are only friends and even that is a fairly recent development.


TBC

I'm so glad you are back!!!! I love this!!!!! I love Myles' cutting humour sneaking out in his journal -- J/S being called the Defrost Case -- and "entering the lioness' den"!!!! And his reaction to Tara -- though he's not admitting why he's so reactive!
that'll be me bouncing around the house tonight.
Kav

And the M/T addiction continues...wonderful, wonderful, wonderful!!!